This is hard. Missing this specific person has been difficult. Almost everything reminds me of him. I'm currently in his city. I honestly have no desire to come back to Chicago, not even visit. I used to be all for going to concerts here...but now? I'll pass.
I miss him every single day. There's not a moment that I don't think of him. I find myself thinking of the corny shit we used to say to each other. Certain places remind of him. Specific songs make me feel some type of way.
I keep telling myself that I made the right decision, because it's clear we don't belong together. But, that doesn't help alleviate the pain I've caused for both parties. I've broken his heart not once, but TWICE. In my mind, I feel he hates my guts. He's over me, never wants to talk to me, and said FDB.
Subconsciously, that's how I feel. I'm struggling with it. I don't embrace my feelings often, nor do I know how to handle them. I just want to stop thinking about him but I can't...
🙁😥😔
