Big Age

Peace, love, and souuuullllll. Been a minute since I wrote. This is a random thought: but, for the most part I love the older people I work with. Sometimes they’re a little messy with gossip but they always drop major gems. For some reason I’ve always resonated with older people, and that’s probably why everyone calls me old. I love my blankets, I don’t mind going to bed early, and just my overall demeanor. 😂💁🏽‍♀️ I love the fact that no matter how old they are, they see the potential in me... they see I’m a good person with a good head on my shoulders. That’s always made me feel so good about myself. Cuz you know old(er) people LOVE to talk shit about the younger generation. Recently I started going to the gym after YEARS of needing it. I’m not gonna lie, it feels good to be in this space. Knowing that I am actively & diligently working on becoming the best version of myself. It’s funny tho, all the old heads I talk to are like... “Just keep going, don’t give up. You’re young. Go ahead and make it happen.” To hear them say I’m young makes me subconsciously laugh. Technically I am. At 32, I am still young. Unfortunately society dictates otherwise. My dad will be 68 in a couple of months & all he ever says is “Keep on living. Hopefully you make it to this age.” And he’s right. If not often, we think that once we hit our 30s that we’re officially old. However, that couldn’t be more further from the truth. Luckily, both my parents have good genes & I look like I’m still in my 20s. 🙏🏽 Age is definitely is a stigma & it’s really a mindset. I’m not even gonna lie, 32 has been good to me. I’ve actually enjoyed it. While in your 30s, alotta things make more sense and it’s more of... ‘I ain’t got time for the bullshit and it is what it is’ type of mindset. And I fully support it. It’s a lot more smoother, more awareness of self, & accepting things for what they are & not what you want them to be. Like my Pops said, ‘Keep on living.’ Everyday ain’t peaches and cream, but, gotta keep on moving regardless of what’s happening. In this moment, I’m grateful to be the big age of 32. Cuz people are dying now more than ever, especially in this pandemic. Slow & steady on this health journey. I’m not just tryna be summa time fine at 32, but the rest of my life. I appreciate everyone who’s keeping me encouraged, supported, & loved on. You know what? It’s love.... all ways, always.